I’ve really neglected my good blogging streak lately, :( It’s not intentional, I’ve just had alot on my plate, not doing college work, pondering/worrying about Chris, and just generally trying to get things sorted. Things are still bad with everyone, I’m still getting dragged into things that don’t involve me, it’s just getting to the point now where I’m just feeling like not bothering with any of them – But life goes on. Or so they say.
The rebound peach yogurt, before you ask, is what I’m eating right now. No, I haven’t been having some sordid affair with the fruit bowl… The bottom line is that things royally fucked up and people are exposing the wounds to more shit-stirring/immaturity. I still don’t know the facts, all I found out today was Chris’s side of things. It was hard to get my head-around. Part of me felt like smacking him over the head, and part of me just couldn’t help but sit and listen. I gave him the “disrespect” speech, being stubborn in thinking he was telling me what I want to hear. But when I sit and think about it, he was being genuine. I was angry and had a heated discussion with his friend/ex-fling whatever haha. I’m just so sick of being stuck in the middle of situation’s that don’t involve me, I’m a nurturer, not a fighter.
I’m done with having peoples backs and taking care of them. There’s a long and short, both of which I cba to explain. The last few weeks haven’t been easy. I want to give up so much, but then part of me knows he’s worth holding onto. I’mma gonna sit here and eat this yogurt, possibly drop him a text and check he’s okay. Then again, I might leave him to suffer in his own doings.
